Once you engage with the 365 Commitment, you may notice yourself sort of splitting in your awareness. Part of you will continue being you doing the things you’ve grown accustomed to doing, and part of you will take on an observer role that watches yourself acting in the world.
I think this is because the 365 Commitment forces you to tune into your habits, behaviors, and patterns; and, to pay attention to how you spend your time, say the things you say, and think the things you think. You may question why it is you do the things you do.
At any rate, I am experiencing this phenomena. It leads me to evaluate what behaviors to keep and what to let go. What sorts of behaviors do I really want to manifest vs. which parts of me are merely old habits/patterns that are not serving me well and should be let go of, burned off like dead wood in a forest.
In thinking about how best to make use of this interesting mental state, I will focus on what I say. I’ll work to be aware of my purpose and intentions before I speak. As someone who likes ideas, and likes to talk to and entertain people, I have the proclivity to think out loud, and speak impulsively instead of speaking with purpose.
Don’t get me wrong. It’s not that I’m down on myself, rather I think I am just bored with some parts of myself. Feeling the new normal of consciously derived habits filling my day leads me to realize that I can change what I want, with effort and focus. The core me won’t change, but rather will become more prevalent and more intentionally expressed. The parts that are boring, weak, or immature can just drop or burn off, or be crowded out by new conscious habits of mind.
Sounds like a cool idea, we’ll see if this line of thinking bears fruit in the coming days.
I know this, tomorrow I have to do 74 pushups, one more that I did two days ago. Then the next day I will do 25 pull-ups, one more than I did yesterday. I will let the power of incremental change and daily discipline inexorably and steadily drive transformation, like a glacier scours a valley – transforming the landscape forever. Onward.
Ben Wagner (42)
Member 365 Commitment
