You do not find peace. You do not, after a long life struggle suddenly find peace. A life spent in struggle will most likely end in struggle. Peace is not found, it is not discovered, it is chosen. You choose peace. If you want to be calm, relaxed, content then you must choose to be so. If you are waiting around for that to happen, it will not. You must make it that way. You have no one to blame for your lack of peace, other than yourself. There are times when are circumstances change out of our control, that happens suddenly and often times tragically. However, all other times, we are absolutely in control of how we respond.
Guy