I am learning a bit about my mental cycles. An interesting side benefit of keeping track of my commitments each day is that I am starting to really notice the mental pattern of degradation that I go through every 30 days or so. I have done well in convincing my mind to overcome the physical. I have woke up at 5am every day for 60 days now. I did this morning 60 pushups, 60 situps, and 60 squats. I also have ran at least 2 miles every morning for 60 days. This has taken an exhausting amount of convincing to force my mind to will me forward on some days.
However, the physical seems to be the easy part. The mind is much more difficult. I am on the downward side of a mental collapse, and that has left me wondering why? Looking back through the last 110 days, I have noticed a pattern. I start to get overwhelmed by input. It seems when that input reaches a critical level, my mind starts to break down. I start to turn inward and start to look for ways to avoid people and other interactions. This is because my mind is on overload.
I think I am not allowing my mind to think freely for a period of time. So I am scheduling some time for my brain just to think freely. Yup. I am going to sit myself in a room, with no music, no videos, no books on tape, no computer, no phone and just force my mind to think freely for a while. Let myself process everything I have experienced since my last brain melt down. I think I need to recognize that my mind needs this time. I think this is why hiking in nature or taking long walks is always appealing to me. Time for my brain to process things.
Unfortunately, I fell into this habit of listening to music or youtube talks while running. That was good when my mind was fresh, but I kept pelting new ideas at it every morning. Eventually that is going to lead to a full tank and that is the root cause of my symptoms. Brain overload.
So for my 365 Commitment I am going to force myself to take time just to “sit and think” and see what happens.
Guy Reams (110)
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