When are you going to be good enough to live the the life you know that you could live, or want to live? When will you be good enough?
We all should be on an eternal quest for improvement, to get better, to strive to get to the next level but there has to come a time when you wake up and say I am good enough to be on the correct path. Do you find yourself following a path and all the while thinking that you could do better, you could be better? I have come to realize that this internal voice needs to shut up. I am fine. I can go ahead and be the person that I am, want to be, need to be. I no longer need permission from the internal nay sayer.
It is like this. I can live a certain life, behave a certain way, knowing that in the back of my mind that I am a fraud because I am not really worthy of the life that I lead OR I can just choose to be good enough. Good enough is not perfect. Repeat, being good enough is not being perfect or even perfectly ready. Good enough means that it is time to just start being the person that you know you can be.
My wife got me to listen to the audible book “The Power of Vulnerability” by Brene Brown. She talks a lot about feelings of shame that some people find themselves in. She talks about motivation, aspiration and overcoming our personal feelings of worthiness to excel at being real with ourselves and others. I found this a tough thing to listen to, hits close to home in some cases, but in other ways confirming of some thoughts that I have been having.
As I have recently pushed myself into new territory by making and keeping life changing habits, I have had to really overcome negative emotions in order to do so. That nagging voice that says that I am not good enough yet to be doing this has just had to go sit in the closet. Something about every morning, every day doing things that I knew that I could if I just tried has caused me to lock that closet and forget the key.
You see from now on, I judge myself as good ’nuff. Do not need permission, acceptance, or approval to live life to its fullest. What was I waiting for anyway?
Guy Reams
